BLS testimony.

Sometimes it's not yelling or directing your questions upwards, hoping for a response to a question that need not be answered. At times silence, can be the most embracing form of acknowledging Him. You know what used to drive me up the wall more then anything? Being ignored. Now looking back on it, I don't blame some people, seeing as I was quite a ignorant little punk. I often wonder after I've strayed from God, are you literally just shaking your head at me in a "I told you so" type of way? I allowed God to take me in 2011, but even more so to my amazement, I realize he allowed me to follow, and to worship Him, and experience a love so infinite. I have been up and down for the past few years, like any other person or Christian. I am a sinner, and I admit it. I do too fall short of the glory. The whole purpose I went scouring the world, to no avail, attempting to get down to why we can be so loving, compassionate, merciful, but yet so downright hateful sometimes. The precise reason I was and am completely taken up in Jesus Christ. I used to claim the title atheist, but eventually really asked myself.... How can I say this is impossible? Eventually moving on to claiming agnosticism, since I came to the dawning truth at the time, that I really do not know. All I knew was I felt like I was projecting a lot of love into the world at the time, only to get stepped on in return. Lol I think we can all mutually agree we know the feeling. I guess what really brought me to the ledge, to take the figurative and quite literal "leap of faith", was losing my worldly father. It posed the question, and I didn't take no or impossible for an answer. Though I know too well now, sometimes we have to take no for an answer. Even it wants to create doubt, or it upsets me temporarily. I will coin it and say "God works in mysterious ways" Well yeah I'm not going to act like I fully understand Him, or someday will. I am creation and all I know is, I was not made for wicked schemes, nor to bring pain, ill fortune, or dilemma to others. God has made himself known to me, and I've found Jesus to be "the real deal". I am in complete joy to be able to share this, even if it doesn't bring anyone else to Christ. If it does, then that joy will be double. Many people may think I am a fool, and that's alright by me. Because in complete honesty, they probably already did. And since were being honest, I will have to say I most likely am, but not for fore mentioned reasons might I say. Anyways if anyone has taken interest in Jesus or my testimony, or any of this at all, then I urge you. Don't write God off. He took the time to write you in. Anyways thanks, if you took the time to read through all that.

Posted this on FB just now. This is my first time actually really exploring the site. AWESOME! So happy about it. Praise report for that too xD